It was only 15 days ago that we received the news. At times it seems like only yesterday, but most of the time it seems like forever ago. So much has transpired since then. So much that has been life changing.
The phone call took my breath away leaving me kneeling on the floor at the church in uncontrollable sobs, surrounded by friends. My 18 year old 'brother' had lost his life in an accident.
I reminded myself through the tears, that even in this God had a plan to use this for the good of His glory. I just couldn't see how...
...And since, already, I have seen glimpses of God in the midst of it.
We were already schedule to leave just 5 days later for a 9 day trip to Guatemala. My dad was scheduled to go with us. Due to the timing of everything, his keeping the commitment to the trip would mean missing the funeral.
After much prayer and with the blessing of the family, he chose to proceed with the trip.
And not only make the trip, but the decision was made that my brother's personal items (clothes, "toys", etc.) would be brought on the trip to distribute to those in extreme poverty in the lake area of Guatemala.
We just returned home late Sat. night from our trip to Guatemala. I am so excited to share with you about our time there over the next days and weeks.
Sharing. Loving. Ministering. Grieving. Healing. And being loved on by them...
And most of all...seeing God present in humbling, amazing, and awesome ways.
The events of the last 2 weeks have changed me. Are changing me. God is at work.
Praying. Searching. Seeking. Examining. Considering. Pondering.
I don't exactly know the full extent of what all of this means yet, but this I do know...
I'm not who I was.