I have been doing a lot of thinking about life lately. But then, that's not so new.
I have been doing a lot of thinking about blogging lately. But then, that's not so new either.
Regarding my blog
I tend to re-evaluate my place here at least a couple of times a year. Recently, I've had some new thoughts swirling in my brain.
Not so long ago I found myself remembering what blogging was like all those years ago when I first started. It seemed to me that maybe it had changed somehow.
After pondering this for a few weeks, my thoughts were confirmed by Linds that, indeed, blogging has changed.
At some point along the way, I began reading and following seven blogs on how to blog. Slowly and without warning, I began believing and following the instructions they were giving. (or at least trying to)
As I have continued thinking about blogging, and my blog here, I realized that the "how to's" have really started weighing me down and taking me to a place in some of my motivations and drive that I did not like.
I have since removed all of those blogs from my reader. Every last one of them.
And then today I was told, in an indirect way that felt very direct (because it's exactly what I needed to hear), that my blog will never measure up.
Now before you go getting all upset or think that was rude, I am completely grateful! In fact, I can't tell you the weight that lifted from my shoulders as I read, and was almost given permission, for my blog to never measure up.
I have also been considering the responses that were given on my survey. I learned that, of those that responded, 58% of you don't have a blog of your own, yet you choose to come and spend time here. I am so honored to have your presence! Knowing this information has been helpful as I consider my place here.
Regarding my life
In addition to all of this, for about the last 9 months my heart has found itself in a place I least expected in life. It has been quite consuming. I know and believe that when I get to the other side of this, I will be all the richer for it. But it's the getting to the other side...
If you would have told me two years ago that I would have encountered the things of these last months, I would have laughed and never believed you.
But, the reality is... I did. I have been putting a lot of focused time into the restoration and renewal process, but there is still work to be done.
Regarding my plans
Given all of this, I have been sensing that I need to take extra and more focused time to quiet. To silence. To stop having my words flow so freely so that I can be able to better discern what HIS words are...
And so, I am going to be doing just that. I am going to enter a season of silence here and on my Facebook page. I just need a bit of time to do some sifting, sorting, re-evaluating, renewing, re-focusing...and resting.
If you think of it and would like to pray with me during this time, I would gladly welcome that!
I will continue to leave my e-mail open during this time. (firstname.lastname@example.org) Please feel free to contact me that way.
I know this was long, and if you made it this far... then I Thank You! Thanks for listening to the things of my heart.
I'm eager to see what God has for me, for you, for all of us in the next season...
Ecclesiastes 3:1,7b (NIV) "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be silent and a time to speak."