As difficult as it is for me to digest, I truly believe I am to remain in a season of silence until after Easter.
If that seems like a long time to you, be assured it also seems like a long time to me too. However, due to some things that have come to light, I am quite confident that this is the answer to my prayers of "How long Lord?"
The meeting with my Lord this time around is not the same as I have experienced it so often in the past. This time there are moments that it feels as if more of a struggle.
Not a struggle to surrender, but rather a struggle to listen, to quiet, to still myself. Almost a restlessness of sorts.
An increased learning to wait. To listen. To just linger....
I will tell you that some of my theology, as I have known it, is being turned upside down.
It is a good struggle, a good upside down... if there is such a thing. Perhaps this type of experience is what is referred to as "working out your salvation"?
Philippians 2:12b-13 (NLT) "Work hard to show the results of your salvation, obeying God with deep reverence and fear. For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him."There is a working taking place and it is not so easy.
Beneficial? Absolutely! Worthwhile? You Bet! But easy and without effort... it is not.
To each and every one of you, THANK YOU for waiting with and for me in this journey. This means so much more than you know!
season of silence, but I wanted to stop in long enough to let you know the time line. My e-mail will continue to remain open during this time. (firstname.lastname@example.org)
Even if you are not in a focused season, I'm trusting that each one of you are finding moments to also quiet yourselves before God... learning, listening, and just lingering...in His presence.