12.31.2010

The Fire...My Potter

I’ve been doing some pondering about this last year. Had I known what it would hold, I wonder if I would have so readily entered?

It has been a difficult year for me, personally and emotionally. Much of what I encountered and processed through was not open to share in most circles, let alone an open forum such as this. There was stuff my head and heart needed to sift and process through.

As I look back, I am reminded that I am just clay in the Potter’s hand. He promises that He is working on me to make something beautiful of my life… a creation after His own heart.

I want inner beauty. I want to have His heart. I want Him to apply the pressure of molding me. I want Him to squeeze and shape me. I even want the rough brush to caress my skin now and then applying the radiant colors.

This last year found me in more than the uncomfortable, the irritating or the frustrating. This last year found me in the fire…the Refiner’s fire.


I have been on the edge of the oven before, in the heat. This last year I found myself immersed in the center of the flame. The Master Potter saw that it was time to apply some of the heat required to move this piece closer to completion.

I did not like the fire.

There were times I tried to look through the flames to catch just one glimpse of the Master Potter sitting just on the other side, but I couldn’t always see Him. My brain knew He was there but my heart questioned otherwise.

I pleaded and begged to be removed from the fire. I knew it was for my good but I couldn’t see how. Surely there was another way.


As I was turned in the fire, I would catch glimpses of His face, and then once again nothing.

I would hear soft whispers as He spoke, and then silence.

I would feel His hands ever so gently cradled beneath me, and then gone.

I found a range of emotions surge through my spirit as I endured the scorching heat.

I sensed panic, abandonment, anger, questioning, fear, doubt and hurt. In the moments I could catch a glimpse of the Potter, these emotions would settle. And then a few moments in the most intense flames and once again they would surge.

At one point, I began to feel numb. I began to feel some relief, but then it felt so lonely. I couldn’t figure out what was happening. I felt lost and confused. After much soul searching I began to recognize what had happened.


I had removed my own heart from the fire. It was too intense and I did not trust and want it to be there any longer. I was attempting to shelter it, to protect it.

It was hurting. It was painful. It was more than I thought I could take.


I was done. I was good enough for me. I was content to walk around being a selfish, unfinished, ugly piece of pottery. It was much more comfortable… but it was not what was best.

I am aware that the refiner’s fire is required for any piece to be complete. The fire is what brings out the brilliance of the colors that have been applied. The fire is what makes the piece firm, strong, and secure. The fire is a required necessity.

I have learned something about a refiner. He does not take his eyes off the piece he is working on. Regardless if the piece is being molded, or in the very depths of the fire… his eyes remain focused, intent on the work he is fashioning. Although the piece may be completely immersed in the flame, he knows just where it is and how long is required to get the finished effect.

I have heard it said that when a piece is being refined in fire, it is only complete when the potter can see his own reflection in that piece. That takes time. That takes work. That takes patience, craftsmanship, and attentiveness.

That is truly what I want… for God to see His reflection in me. I want others to see His reflection in me. I do not want to be a broken, unfinished piece. I want to be complete... so complete that all that is seen is the beautiful, brilliant reflection of My Master Potter.

II Corinthians 3:18 (Living Bible) "We can be mirrors that brightly reflect the glory of the Lord. And as the Spirit of the Lord works within us, we become more and more like Him."

As I head in to this next year, my heart has once again been placed in the Potter’s Hand. Yes, I myself have returned and placed it there.


I know the fire is required for completion. I have returned, willing to encounter the furnace, the flames, the heat, the intensity… if that is what is needed. My heart eyes see today… His eyes see eternity.

My number one desire is to be used of Him...to glorify Him...to reflect Him.

“Refiner, my Master Potter, help me to have eternal heart eyes that don’t see the things of this moment… but the eternal glory being achieved in my troubles.” (II Cor. 4:17-18)

It is not about me. It can not be about me. It must be about Him!

Even in the fire, I can be assured if that is where He wants me, He will not leave me there alone. I can know that His eyes are forever on me, most intently during the times of the fire, for that is when it is most crucial that the focus remains for completion.

Last year was a year of fire. This year may not be so different, except that my heart is willing to face the fire… if the Master Potter deems it necessary. My heart is willing to encounter whatever is required for His reflection to be seen!

Yes, even if it means another year of the fire.

6 comments:

  1. Precious post, that I needed to read, desperately...

    Thank you.

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  2. Donnetta!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This was unbelievably beautiful!

    Thank you thank you thank you!

    I'm sharing it!

    Love,
    Traci

    PS: Happy New Years!

    Love,
    Traci @ Ordinary Inspirations

    http://www.ordinaryinspirations.blogspot.com

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  3. That refiner's fire burns hot....but His love does too! I pray the new year will bring blessings!

    How I understand that fiery furnace.....but I think most times I've been in it, I have cried out NO....I'm trying to look for Him in it now. You've helped with that!

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  4. Oh girl.. I cant agree more.. all this past year I had felt like i was in the fire..and found myself wondering at times if God was just content with me being unhappy and worried.. but I never felt like he wasnt with us. we have had plenty of proof of his presence..
    But I am excited about being molded by him this year..
    Happy New Year to you and your family as well.. wishing you many many happy days of laughter and smile..and many miracles God has planned for you...

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  5. Inspiring, challenging ... and these words ... I did not trust ... are always my downfall. Beautiful post. Thank you for sharing my friend!

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  6. Beautifully written & so true! I always hear God whispering, "My grace is sufficent for you" when faced with trails that make me think God has left me to face them alone. I love reading about Paul & not only how God's grace was sufficient for him, but also how Paul learned to be content no matter the situation. One of my goals for 2011 is to be more content knowing I am right where God wants me to be :)

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